Christmas is almost here!! Yeah

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So Thanksgiving has come and gone, and I'm OK with that. Actually I normally like Thanksgiving, but this year I was so sick. I ended up with the stomach flu (or at least that's what we think it is....) I was sick all night on Thanksgiving, I didn't even get to enjoy food...so sad. The saddest part of all.....I DID'T GET TO GO SHOPPING ON FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could have done without other things, but not getting to go shopping, now that is what I was sad about. I always look forward to going shopping, I prayed for nice weather (and God provided), I had people to go with, and that was all we talked about for 2 weeks, and I didn't even get to go. I was so bummed about it. It was so sad. Well that's all done with now, there is nothing that I can do about it.

So yesterday even though I was still sick, the tree still went up!!

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I actually don't put the tree up, I couldn't it's too big, but hubby got it up and got the lights on it,and the garland put on it. It was then up to the boy's and I to get the ornaments on the tree. So I let them put the ornaments on, and I only fixed a couple. We put the candy canes on, and that was it.

So often we get so wrapped up in the whole buying presents, and rushing here and there. Going from one family to the next, visiting this person and that person, sometimes we need to stop, and truly celebrate

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all that the Lord has done for us. The Lord has done so much for us, and we often forget all that he has done. I am so thankful for all that the Lord has done for me, and I want this year to be a better year for me. I want to celebrate what the Lord has done for me and what the Lord has given me.

So in this time of year I encourage you all to be Thankful for what the Lord has done, enjoy your family time, don't get caught up in Keeping with the Jones' and above all have a Happy Holiday season!!

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In my 27....almost 28 years of life.....I can remeber my father calling me....ONCE....until now!!

So yesterday started out like any normal day, until about 8:30 AM. The phone rang, as I look at the caller ID, I was amazed at the number that I saw. It was my Father!!!! I couldn't believe it, it wasn't possible. There was no way, that the man that wanted nothing to do with me my whole life was calling me...it just didn't seem right.

Well for sure it was him, there was no doubt there. I still was in shock. He talked as if nothing had happened, as if the years that have gone by with no contact was no big deal. I still don't even know why it was that he called me. I wrote him a letter last week, and he said that he got it, and so he thought that he would give me a call. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? That's not right. I wanted to tell him....Who are you and what did you do with my father??!!

I am truly amazed that he called, but yet at the same time...what an answer to prayer. I prayed the day that I mailed that letter that the Lord would allow it to work on my father's heart, and it looks like it did. What a mighty God we serve!! He truly answered my prayers, and I pray that through this, that maybe my father and I can talk more often.

The greatest thing to me is that even though I don't really talk to my earthly father that much, I can talk to my Heavenly Father all I want!! He is ALWAYS there for me. He cares about my hurts and pains, and concerns.

I am not going to expect anything from my father, but I can pray that things will progress into a relationship of some sort, although I surely won't hold my breath for that. I am leaving it all in God's hands, and allowing Him to guide me through this. Only the Lord knew this was going to happen, and so I know that He knows what will take place from here on out.

Yesterday was a good day overall. I am still today in shock that he called me. I didn't belive that it was real. WOW....What a mighty God we serve!!

This....That....And The Other....

I know it's been a while, and I couldn't even really tell you why. I have so much that I want to say, and so much that I could say, and yet I simply don't write it down. I guess for fear of what might come out, or might be said. And although I am sure that it is safe to say that nobody really reads this, the one time that I would write something down, is the time that I would regret what I said. I'm sure we all understand what it is that I am talking about.

Things are going pretty well actually. My family and I are at a new Church, and it is a breath of fresh air...Literally. We felt trapped for so long, and like we couldn't breathe, now we are at a Church where the Love of The Lord is taught, and it's AMAZING!! It's great to finally hear messages of God's Love, and how God wants us to be. Instead of always hearing how horrible we are as people, and we just let the Lord down, and we are no good. Etc., Etc., Etc.... I was really getting tired of feeling run down. I literally got to the point where I didn't want to go to Church anymore. I didn't want to see anybody, and I didn't want to walk through the Church doors. I had such a wounded spirit, I was so hurt. Deep down inside I felt broken...I had no answers, and I just had to fake it there for a while. You want people to believe that it's great and there is nothing wrong, and so while you are dealing with people you just make it look like everything is OK, and then when you get behind closed doors, you break down. I can tell you that the Lord heard me A LOT crying out to Him, asking, begging Him for help. It was almost as if I was tired of wandering in the desert, and asking the Lord...How much longer Lord??!! I can't do this much longer....Deliver me!! And He did!!

I didn't expect my journey with my husband in the ministry to be as eventful as it has been, but I know that I wouldn't take it back for anything. I know that this is the Lord's way of teaching us how to do things, and how NOT to do things. I have learned a lot, and I realize now more than ever that people are just looking to be loved. People want to hear that the Lord loves them, and yes sin is sin, and that needs to be taught, but NOT shoved down people's throats. The reason that I know that I can say that, is because that is what I want, what I need.

We have truly gone through A LOT the past couple of months, and I wish that I could sit here and say that it is over, but sadly I can't do that. The lies, rumors, etc., are still going on, and they don't look like they will end. If it's not one thing, it's another. It amazes me that one man can run his mouth till he is blue in the face, and think that it's OK, and call himself a man of God. Our former Pastor has done more harm than good, and it is really annoying. The Bible says to pray for your enemies, and that is exactly what I'm doing. I pray for him all the time. My biggest prayer is that the Lord will move him on. Away from here, and away from the people that he has hurt the most. One day he will realize the pain that he has caused people, and he will learn that he did more harm than good in a lot of people's lives.

I just praise the Lord every day for leading us to our new Church. The Pastor there is AWESOME!! He understands where Chris and I are coming from, both he and his wife have been there. They have compassion, and they are OK with allowing us to heal, which is exactly what we need. I know that if I were to go somewhere right now, and teach people, I'd be absolutely no good to anyone. My pain is so deep, but with the Lord's help, I am getting through this. Yes, it's been a journey, and I know that I'm not done yet, but I am learning as I go.

I have to say that through this all, my husband has been my HERO!! Outside of the Lord, my husband is my hero, my all. On earth he is the one that I follow, and he has not led me and our family astray. He is so strong, and mighty, and I admire everything about him. Through everything that has happened, and all the attacks that he has had to face in the past couple of months (and let me tell you there has been a lot, and they are bad!) he always has such a sweet spirit, and over and over he tells me that it is going to be OK. I know that it is going to be OK, and I know that the Lord is going to work it all out, and I trust the Lord to do that. I thank the Lord every day for my husband!! He is the best, and I am beyond blessed to be married to him. He gives me so much strength, especially when I just want to quit. He lifts me up, and he picks me up when I fall, and he won't let me quit. My prayer is that I can be as strong as he is one day.

Well I guess that has been my life in a nutshell. I am looking forward to the Holidays, and I cannot believe that Thanksgiving is right around the corner. Turkey, dressing, pumpkin pie, it's all next week. (let's all remember what there is to be thankful for in this life!!) That just doesn't seem possible. Next week, the day after Thanksgiving, we will be putting up our Christmas tree, and hanging the lights, putting up our stockings, and I get to put out ALL my snowmen!! That is so great. I am an avid snowman collector, and I cannot wait to bring them all back out, plus all the new ones that I have gotten. I am looking forward to it all.

I am off for now. I am going to try and blog more often, it would probably help me if I would. It lets me get a lot of things off my chest, and that is a good thing. Sometimes if you just write it out, then you feel better, and I can honestly say that I do feel better now. So TTFN :-)

Having an Eeyore kind of day

Do you ever have those days where you just feel sad?? Drained?? Worthless?? Well I am having one of those days today. I feel like Eeyore, where he's there, but he still doesn't feel like he fits in.

So much has been going on the past couple of months, and you try to tell yourself to get past it, don't let it bother you, ignore the things that are being said, but yet there are times that you can't.

Today is one of those days where I have been somewhat replaying things in my mind. I am sure that is something that I shouldn't be doing, but I am flesh, and it happens. I am so mad at certain things, and even certain people. Horrible awful things have been said about my husband, and there are people out there who are stupid enough to believe them, it's unreal to me. Even some people who said they were our "friends" have believed the lies of one man. It's amazing to me when someone KNOWS that the person who told them this lie, is known for his evil ways, and his lies, and yet they still believed him. AMAZING!!!!!!

Why is it when you walk away from a situation, and you try to move on with your life, that there is always something that seems to hold you back? I know that the devil plays a lot into things, but I really feel at the end of my rope almost. I am so tired, emotionally drained, and there are days that I simply want to give up. Then I realize that the Lord is right there, and He wants to help me through my problems, and I need to let Him. It just feels as though there are times when nothing is going to change, and nothing is going to happen, and people are just going to run their mouths, because they think it's the right thing to do. People don't care that it's wrong, and that they are gossiping, and spreading false truths. No....that doesn't matter.

I am so annoyed with people. Not everyone, just certain people. It's a good thing that the Bible says to pray for your enemies otherwise I'd be in a lot of trouble. I have prayed and prayed for these people, and I hope that the Lord answers my prayers. I know He will, it's all just a matter of time.

We are at a new Church now, and it's been very helpful. The Pastor there is wonderful, and he preaches the Word of God with love, and compassion. I no longer have to worry about what negative thing is going to be said, and I don't feel horrible when I go to Church anymore. It's been refreshing to be there, but yet at the same time, I almost feel as though I don't fit in. Yes, I know people there, and that's great and nice, but there is still something there. It's not something that I can explain, and I am happy going there, there's just something....The Lord knows my heart and He knows that I love going there, and I love the Pastor there, and I know that I have to use this time to heal, before I move on anywhere.

So on this sad, dreary day I'm off. It felt good to get things off my chest....Sometimes you have to do that to make yourself feel better. I know that things will pick up, and get better, it's all just a matter of time.

Reflections

Someone had sent me a picture the other day and it was of me and my husband 10 years ago at my senior prom!! I could not believe that they had this picture. I was really amazed that anyone had it. I was sure that only family and I had it, guess not.You know, how you can remember looking at your parents pictures, and thinking how goofy they look, well I can't help but think that is what my kids will think. Look at my husband's glasses, thank goodness for contacts (right babe?)....Too funny. So yes....the picture above is of me and my husband 10 years ago. I think that we were already engaged there in this picture if I'm not mistaken.

Now here we are. Married for 8 years, going on 9. We have two beautiful children, and a baby up in Heaven that we will get to see one day. We have a house, and a nice car, but all that fails in comparrison to what we have together. We have a marriage that is based on what the Lord wants for our lives. We have learned to base our marriage on the Lord. It took us a few years to get to that point, but we are there, and things are GREAT. We have both worked hard to have a relationship like we have now. It's been a lot of sacrifice, but it is sooooooo worth it!! You hear people say that marriage is 50-50, but it's not, it's 100-100!! You both have to give it all you've got, or you won't make it anywhere.

So 10 years later I can say that I am happier than I've ever been. I am married to the best guy ever. He leads me and his family in the way of the Lord, and that is what matters most. God was so good to me, and I thank the Lord all the time for giving me the best husband!! *BABY I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART (or as we say, as much of my heart as I can). I THANK THE LORD FOR YOU, AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU DO FOR ME AND FOR YOUR FAMILY!!!!

Through all the hurt and pain in life....God's love is....PERFECT!!

I realize that it has been a very long time since I have been on here, and I am so sorry for that. I don't know who really takes the time to read my blog (outside of a few people), but this is mainly to help me vent.

So many things have gone on in the past 2 months. You talk about a rollercoaster, I have been on the biggest one of my life recently. I cannot begin to tell anyone the pain, sorrow, anguish, etc....that I have felt. In the past few months, I realized that if it wasn't for God's love, and grace, I don't know where I'd be.

It all began when my husband was canidating for a Church in Burkburnett, TX. We went there to see if that is where the Lord would lead us. While we were there, my husbands name was being dragged through the mud up here. He had just recently resigned his position at the Church that he was the Assistant/Youth Pastor at, because he realized that he (or we) could no longer support the leadership and where his direction was going. Therefore he resigned...Long story short, we should have walked away sooner. So, while we were in Texas, and while he is Preaching at this Church, seeing if this is where the Lord would have us, all you know what is breaking loose up here. Phone call after phone call is what we were getting, about what was going on here. We decide that that Church is not where we need to be when we come back from Texas, and determine in our minds to move on, and walk away....QUITELY.

Well in the process of all that was going on here, other members of the Church realized that it was also their time to leave. (*Side note-During this time, the Church here was having a tent meeting, with services every night.*) So, during everything going on, more people realize that the Lord is closing the door on their staying there. So, all in total, 5 families walked away. Well through all this, slander and degrading, it was all my husbands fault. AMAZING!! Biblically he did nothing wrong. My husband did it all the way that it was supposed to be done, and we did nothing wrong!!

So, then we find out a week later on a Sunday night that he didn't get the Church.....basically due to slander from the Pastor here!! I was OUTRAGED!! Never, NEVER have I felt so much pain, hurt, sorrow. I literally threw my hands up in the air that night, and told my husband- "If this is what the ministry is...You can keep it. I'm done!!"

We've faced a few battles since that. We also realize that us not getting that Church in TX was the Lord's will, and that He was protecting us from something that could have been horrible. We were prepared for if they said no, we just weren't prepared for the reason it happened. The battles that have come since then haven't been as bad, but they were still battle none the less.

Through this all, we have seen some families come closer to the Lord, and that is so AWESOME!! We have now found a Church here in town, where the Pastor is welcoming us with open arms, and Praise the Lord for it. He is a good guy, and has love and compassion for families, people, and kids. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!

I realize now also, that this is not what the ministry is about. God is so much more than judgemental. He is a God of love and compassion, and I am finding my way back to Him. I realize that I have strayed from Him, and that is not where I need to be. God is so loving to me, and when I feel as though I can't go on anymore, it's almost as if I feel His arms around me, and saying It's OK, I am here for you, and WE will make it through this. God and His love for me is so personal right now. I am so glad that I realize that it will all be alright, and that He loves me through it all.

I have to say that one of my biggest joys right now (aside from the Lord and what He has done for me) is my husband!! I know that I always say that, but it is so true! He has shown the Love of God at times when the flesh is all that showed in me. He kept on, and he kept the faith. He made me see that God isn't abandoning us, and that He will see us through. I absolutely love my husband for all that he has done for me and our family. He is such a strong man, and I admire him so much!! (I LOVE YOU BABY!!)

So that is my life in a nutshell right now. I will try to be better about updating. I think things will be getting better soon, and that's a good thing. My broken toe is still healing, although it's a lot better. My mom is moving out the begining of next month, and that's about it really.

Sharing My Heart

Well it's says share your heart, and that's what I am going to do. I am still finding myself on this wonderful rollercoaster of life. Although this rollercoaster seems to have more downs than it does ups right now. When will this ride end?? Can I get off now?? This sure isn't one of those 60 second rides, and then your off.... Nope.... Not this one. This rollercoaster keeps on going and going (kind of like the Energizer bunny). First was my husband having surgery, (poor husband) he recovered quickly from that, Praise the Lord!! He only had one complication and that was his stitches coming open, but even that healed quickly. As soon as he was feeling better, I fell and broke my toe. I still cannot believe that I did that, but yes....it happened. It took me a while to heal from it, but I am finally starting to feel better and can walk 'normal' which is a blessing. I was tired of walking with the shoe that I was given, not to mention, that it wasn't cute at all. After I fell, my boys got sick. They both were running high fevers, after taking them both to the Dr. you come to find out, that it was just a virus....imagine that!! When all else fails, trust the good old virus. Thankfully that only lasted a few days with both of them. Now the whole family is on the mend......physically.

Emotionally....well I guess that is where the rollercoaster really comes in. Who knew that being in the ministry could be so draining?? I knew that it would be rough, and I realize that, but it sure can take a toll on you. The emotions that you get from being in the ministry are amazing. Right now is a rough time for my husband and I. Trying to find out if the Lord wants us here where we are right now, or is it time to move on? We both feel as though it is time to move on, now the grander question is, where do you go?? The verse in the Bible that says Wait on the Lord, is truly applying to my life right now. I am waiting on the Lord and I know that He is going to lead us on the right path. When do you take that leap of faith and say OK God I'll go, just tell me where to go. I know in my heart that we aren't supposed to be here anymore, and I am ready to move on, but it is a sit and wait game right now. The Lord has really changed my view on things and how they are supposed to be.

I realize that my biggest support right now is my husband. Praise the Lord for my husband. He is my rock, and I truly depend on him. He is always there for me, and I love him with all my heart. Next to the Lord is my everything. I do everything for him, and there is nothing wrong with that in my eyes. He loves me unconditonally even with all my flaws. (Yes that's right....I'm not perfect...big shock right??) He is my biggest supporter, and my companion. Have we always been close and so in love?? No... but we vowed 6 years ago that we would let God be the center of our relationship, and since then it has been a great marriage!! He brings me so much joy and happiness. And he is the head of the household that the Lord has commanded him to be. He leads our family in the right paths, and the way that we should go. I hope for everyone that they can one day find a love like my husband and I have. That is my wish for everyone. For you Honey: I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!! Thank you for being there for me. And like you said on your blog- I know that I have a good thing as well. Love you sweetheart!!!!

And..... I broke my toe!!

Yes, I broke my toe!! I still can't believe that I did it, but it's real. Monday I went into the bathroom and the kids had just gotten out of the bath, and water was on the floor. Needless to say, I found the water, slid in it, and nailed my foot on the bottom of the toliet. I didn't cry or anything. I sat there thinking, did this really happen?? Sure enough it did. So I had to call husband and work and tell him... I think I broke my toe. Well in the process of it all, I tried to see if I could wiggle it. I tried with my fingers, and when I did that, it popped back into place. That is when I knew I broke it. So we went to the ER, and they did the whole x-ray thing, and yes it was broken. So now I have to walk with the coolest shoe ever.....NOT!!!! It is a shoe that keeps my toes straight, because I can't bend them. Hopefully I will be out of it soon. This could not have happened at a worse time either. I broke it Monday, and on Tuesday we were taking our teens to an amusement park. Yes, you guessed it, I was in a wheel chair all day!! Talk about the Lord keeping you humble. For my husband it was him having surgery and having to walk in a hospital gown in front of Church members. For me it was being pushed around an amusement park by my husband and another friend of ours. Although I have to say that my husband has been great!!! He has gone above and beyond to make sure that I am comfortable, and he has been super helpful!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!! So I guess that is all for now. Nothing to interesting is going on here right now. That is all I have for today. :)

Blogging....sometimes it is a stress relief

Here is my blog for today. It is a nice cloudy, rainy, day today, and I am OK with that. Last night it stormed pretty heavy, and we were a close family through the night. By that I mean, both the boys thought that they should climb into bed with my husband and I, because they were afraid. I can't say that I blame them, some of the thunder was pretty loud, and it scared me too. The storm passed, and we put them back to bed, only to be wakened an hour or so later to another storm, although this one didn't wake the kids up, Praise the Lord!! It was a long night for me especially. I really don't sleep much anymore, I keep telling my husband that sleep is over rated, although I don't really think that's true.

So many things have been going on, and I normally stay awake at night praying, and thinking. Well that was me last night. Hubby went to sleep, and I stayed up. I watched some TV, and then I just turned it off, and laid there. I probably shouldn't ponder so many things while I am laying in bed at night, but I can't help it. It is the only time when the kids aren't playing, or screaming, etc., there isn't any noise, nothing, and so it is peaceful, and you can think. So I layed there last night and I prayed for so many things.

I want something to change in my life in the area of Church and serving the Lord. Yes, I am faithful to the Lord now, and I enjoy that, and that is the way that it should be, but I want MORE. Last night was a rough night for hubby at Church. Our Pastor is out of town, and he Preached his heart out, and he felt as though he didn't get anywhere. I told him that wasn't true, but I don't really think it made a difference. I don't really think that I am helping my husband like I should be. He is so sad, and heartbroken right now, and there is nothing that I can do to help him. I hate feeling helpless. I know that the Lord is in control, and that He will take care of him, I just wish that there were more that I could do. I love my husband SOOOOOOOOO Much and I just wish that there were more to do to help him.









I want answers so badly, and yet they simply seem as if they aren't coming. I am sure that they will come, and I KNOW that they will, the big question is when?? How long do we have to wait? I didn't realize that the ministry could be so hard. We have been through a lot in the short time that we have been serving in the ministry. When I was younger I didn't think that I would be moving here and there, and going to different Churches. That wasn't what I was used too. I was used to staying at one Church and serving there. That is what I want right now. I want to find somewhere to serve and be there for a while. It is hard to see me staying where we are at right now, and staying under the Pastor that we are under now, because unless things change, I simply can't do it. I want some new doors to open up for us, and I pray that they do soon.

I guess the bottom line is, that I have to remain faithful to the Lord, and He will remain faithful to me. I know that all this pain will be taken away soon, the big question is when?? Until then though I remain safely In His Grip!!!!

Roller Coaster of life....going down....

You know in this life you realize that you are going to have ups and downs, and as much as you hate it, sometimes you have to go down to get back up. Very honestly though, I am ready to get off this ride that I am on right now! It seems as though I am on a ride that never ends. Why is it that you have to go through so many valleys to enjoy the mountaintops? I want to be on the mountaintops for a while before I have to go through another valley.

Things have been a little rough here lately. I have seen so many of the people that I love being hurt, and I don't like that at all. I want to be able to stop the pain, and make everything OK for them, but I can't. Only the Lord can do that, but it seems as though they have lost all their faith in the Lord, and that isn't right either. I think the thing that bothers me the most is having to see the man that I love going through pain, and being hurt.

I love my husband with all my heart, and I don't like to see him hurt at all. It makes me sad when he is hurting, and I can't fix things for him. He has just faced surgery a week ago, and is still recovering from that. Not to mention whatever is going on at the Church that he has to deal with. It really seems as though it is one thing after the other that is being piled on his plate, and you almost want to say...WHY LORD?? I just want to see my husband in the ministry and happy. He LOVES what he is doing now with working with the teens. They bring him so much joy, and that's wonderful. Being a Youth Pastor is one of the greatest things that has happened for him, and that makes me happy knowing that. I just wish that other things in the Church realm were better for him. If only I could take all his pain away, and if only I had all the answers...but I don't.

There is a song that Carrie Underwood sings called Jesus Take The Wheel, and the words of the chorus are so powerful to me, and explains often times the way that I am feeling.



Well that is all for me right now. We will see where this ride takes me next time.

Oh bother....

I truly feel like Winnie the Pooh right now...with no honey. Let me explain. We really have been dealing with a lot at our Church, and things don't really seem to be getting any easier. People are talking about leaving the Church and if that is what they feel like they have to do, to grow for the Lord then who are we?? I hate that people feel like that, because I know their hearts. Little by little I can see families slipping away from the Lord and that is NOT how it is supposed to be.

My husband and I ourselves have talked about leaving also, but with him being in the ministry, we can't really just pick up and leave. We've prayed and prayed and prayed, and the Lord doesn't seem to be showing us the way right now. And I know that the Lord hears our prayers, and our cries it says so in the Bible. Psa 27:7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me. So I know that the Lord hears my cries and my prayers, and I know that He will answer them, the question is when??

I simply do not understand the mind of our Pastor. I don't say that being rude, or cruel, or even trying to bad mouth him. I just don't get how his mind works. Chris had surgery yesterday to remove his gallbladder, and the whole time that he was up there, which was from 9 in the morning until 7 last night, our Pastor didn't stop by ONCE!! Not once...he didn't even call to make sure that he was OK or anything. I tried calling him 3 times at his house and Church with no answer. This is his assitant that is in the hospital, the one that works by his side, and he can't even come to see how he is doing?? It's not right. Especially when I KNOW that he goes to the hospital to visit this person or that person (who don't go to our Church), and he can't even come to see his own assistant?? I felt so bad for my husband, because that truly hurt his feelings. It was like our Pastor was telling him that he didn't care enough about him to go to the hospital. It's just not fair. I just hope that hubby will feel better soon and then we can move on...if that be the Lord's will.

So we pray and pray and one day the Lord will deliever us. And until then, we will remain faithful to Him, and allow Him to guide us in our lives. I never thought that the ministry could have so many ups and downs. I really didn't. I LOVE being in the ministry I don't want it to sound that way. I know that the Lord works miracles all the time and I know that working for the Lord is the best thing that we can do in our lives.

I just feel saddened by all that is going on. I just know that it is out of my hands and there is nothing that I can do about it. Even though I want to heal everybody, and take everyone's pain away, I know that I can't do that. I know that the Lord is in control, and I have to allow Him to take care of everyone. I just want this journey in the valley to be over with....

I just want to say how much I love my husband. He brings me so much joy and happiness, and he truly lifts my spirits while I am down. It amazes me that when I am down, he is always up and when he is down, I am up. The Lord is so great like that!! My hubby is a HUGE part of my life, and I live to serve him (and the Lord). I am so blessed to have such a great man of God in my life. I love him so much!!


Well that is all for me right now. I am off to go and take care of my hubby, hopefully he is asleep by now, he needs the rest to recover. Take care everbody, and Kristy...WELCOME BACK!!!!!

Happy Birthday America

Happy 4th of July to everybody! I hope that everyone is planning something fun for today, and in return that you will remember all that we have in America. I was thinking the other day how lucky we all are to live in America and to have all the freedoms that we have. While I was in El Paso, I had the chance to go to Juarez Mexico. While there I realized that we really and truly have the greatest life in America. We don't realize what we have until you go somewhere else and they don't have all that we are accustom too. It also made me VERY thankful for missionaries!! Praise the Lord that there are people who are willing to go to other countries and win souls to the Lord. I just know that I couldn't do it. I couldn't go over to another country, BUT I am more than willing to send missionaries to go. I love Missionaries and the work that they do. God Bless them for having a willing heart. So all in all, I guess the bottom line is that I am proud to be an American, and Happy Birthday America!!

Don't lose that fluttering feeling...

You know I was sitting here thinking and I don't know for the life of me how people fall out of love. I was listening to someone yesterday who said they have been married to long,and they lost that fluttering feeling that you get while you are with your spouse. I thought to myself how sad, how very, very sad. And he meant it too, this is someone who has been married for over 30+ years, but is still young, and he said that he doesn't have the feeling anymore.

That lead me to ask myself if I had lost that feeling, and the answer is NO!! That is not to say that I have always felt that way, BUT...I had to learn like a lot of people do how to love him again. This was when we first got married, and we were young. Why is it that after you get married, that everything stops? Is it because the guy got what he wanted and now he is done? I don't know what it is, but I do know that my husband and I learned how to be affectionate again, and I can honestly say that we still get that fluttering feeling. I love my husband with all my heart!!!!



He is absolutely the one that the Lord has for me. I have a lot of friends that have been married and are now divorced, and they wonder why. Why don't they have what I have, and they tell me that I wish I had what you have with Chris. Well the fact of the matter is, I waited and realized that I couldn't choose my mate (I tried that once, and made A TON of mistakes.) When I got saved, and I accepted the Lord as my Saviour, I realized that He was the one that had to pick my mate, not me. I think a lot of times that is how girls get themselves in trouble, is because they want to be with the man because he shows her the attention that she wants and or needs. When Chris and I got together, I told him that I wouldn't date him, or anything else if he wasn't going to go to Church. So he thought that he would play Church, and that is when the Lord got a hold of him. I want to tell all my friends that they had the same choices I did. We all grew up together, it is what you chose to do with your life. If you live for the flesh, then ultimately you will always fail. You cannot live for the flesh, you have to live for what the Lord wants in your life. Once you are saved, you aren't your own anymore.

All I know is that I love my husband with all my heart. He is absolutely the world to me. I am glad that the Lord has brought us to where we are today, and above all.... I am glad that I haven't lost that fluttering feeling!!!

Happy 4th of July...

I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy and safe 4th of July. It's such a good day to remember who we are, where we have come from, and where we are going. We aren't doing too much tomorrow. Just staying home, and having some friends over. Then I think we are going to grill hamburgers and hot dogs. Nothing big, just simple American cooking, or grilling I should say. I told my husband that I don't even really care about fireworks this year. If I see them fine and if not I really don't care. I am sure that isn't the right attitude to have, but that is how I feel. And I don't want to feel that way, but I can't help it. I want my kids to enjoy the fireworks, so I don't want to be the grouch about it. I don't know why it is that I feel that way....well I have to go for now...more later.

Today is a better day

Well I am sitting here thinking that today is a better day. I was really having a rough day on Thursday, and I know that there was a lot that played into it. It just seems as though one thing piles on another and another and another. I am sure that we all know how that goes. If it's not one thing it's another, and if you don't deal with the one thing first then you just get overwhelmed, and that was me on Thursday. Today is Saturday though, and it is a better day.

I know that one of the things that is bothering me the most is the fact that my mom is living with me right now, and that can be rather annoying on certain days. I love my mom to death, I really do, but the deal was that she would move here with us until she found a job, that was in December, and it's July already. I seriously think that it is time for her to move out. I love having her here with us in Illinois, but I am ready to have my house back. So that is one thing that is bothering me.

Another thing that is bothering me is that our Church is in such a place of contentness (not sure if that is a word or not, but it is now.) They are just fine with the way that everything is and that is just not right. It's almost like they don't want to grow anymore for the Lord and they are OK with where everything is. What's that saying...us 4 and no more? I would liken some of the people like that. Don't bring in any new people, we like it just the way it is. I just know that we can do so much more for the cause of Christ and we aren't doing anything. It just doesn't seem right. I want our Youth Department to grow, and I want to see more teens in there. I want to see more young people in our younger kids. I want to have a kids club, and be able to do things with the younger kids. I guess overall I really want to have a bigger Church. One that is on fire for the Lord and that they are willing to do things for the Lord because they want to not because they have too. I am not saying that everyone in our Church is like that, but I bet it is more than half that are. I also want to be somewhere where I don't get yelled at, and where the philosophy is CHILDREN ARE TO BE SEE AND NOT HEARD. What is that about?? I just know that I didn't have kids so that people can see how cute they are (and I must say they are pretty adorable), but they are never supposed to be heard. Nope not to sure that I like that.

I just have to take a minute to brag on my husband. He is the most wonderful man in the world and I love him with all my heart!! He brings me so much joy. When I am discouargaed with things at Church he is always there to tell me that everything will be alright and that God is a loving God, (yet He is also a jealous God) and that the Lord will guide us through this trial. He is a blessing to me on a daily basis. He may not even know what a blessing he is to me, and maybe I don't tell him enough. He knows that I love him, but I don't think that he knows that he is one of the biggest blessings in my life!! He has given me 2 beautiful children (3 actually, although the third one is in Heaven), a roof over my head, food to eat, and above all, he is willing to go to work daily to provide for our family so that I don't have to go to work and I can stay home and take care of the kids. He determined right when we got married that I wouldn't have to work, and he has made it that way ever since. He is an AMAZING man!! I not only love him with all my heart, but I admire him with everythin.g that I have. He has been through so much and through it all he still continues with the best attitude, because he knows that the Lord will see him through. He is just above all the love of my life.

So those are two of the things that were bothering me the other night, and I really do feel better today. Even though neither of those two things have changed, I feel better knowing that the Lord is in control and that He will guide me through these trials. I don't know why it is that we are allowed to go through trials, but I guess it is because the Lord wants us to learn from them, and grow the right way. I know that we will always have trials, and I really don't like that. I do want to learn from them though and I want to do what is right and what the Lord would have me do.

Why do we have sad days????

So I was sitting here at my computer tonight, and I have to say that I have a very heavy heart. Usually writing helps me, so I thought I would jot a few things down, and maybe that will help me. I am not to sure why it is that I have such a heavy heart tonight, but I do. There are so many things that seem to be bothering me, and I can't pinpoint one thing...does that make sense?? Don't know what it is. I guess I just feel as though I can't accomplish anything, and yet I know that's not true. Do you ever just feel that there are days where you simply don't measure up? I guess that is the kind of day that I am having right now. I really don't know how to fix it, except for to offer it up to the Lord, and know that He will help me through this trial, and know that tomorrow is a new day. I sure hope it's a better day, Friday's HAVE to be better....don't they????

I know it's been a while....

OK so I realize that it has been a while since I last posted...sorry. We have been busy around here. We were on vacation for just about 2 weeks, and let me tell you....VACATION STUNK!!!! As much as I was looking forward to it, it was horrible. I really didn't have a good time and in a lot of ways I feel as though we wasted a lot of money going on vacation. We went to El Paso, which is where we are originally from, for our Church's 50th anniversary. As far as that was concerned, we had a great time with the people from the Church, and Chris got to Preach there, which I must say that he did an EXCELLENT job!! So as far as that was concerned we had a great time with that, it was everything else that wasn't good. I have never felt more un-welcomed in my whole life as I did this trip going back "home." I can't help but wonder...if we wouldn't want God to treat us that way, why do we treat others that way?? It was very hurtful being treated the way that we were, and I can pretty much say that I am done going back there for a while. As much as I will miss seeing the people in the Church there, I am not going back, unless an emergency should arise. So as much as I was looking forward to going on vacation, I am not so glad that we were gone. Yes, it was nice to get away, and as far as that's concerned, that was nice, but vacation wasn't all I thought it was going to be, that's for sure.

When we got home we hit the ground running, and began fund-raising for our teens to go to Youth Conference. We are planning on taking them in the month of August to Kentucky, and we have to raise money to get there. So far we aren't doing the best. We know that if the Lord wants us to go there, then we will be able to raise the money. We are going to have a car wash on the 22nd of July, and hopefully we will raise some good money there. It's been rough, businesses aren't to interested in helping us this year. It's all in the Lord's hands and we know that it will all work out, some way, some how.

My hubby is sick right now...Dr. thinks it is his gallbladder. He is in a lot of pain, so hopefully we will find out what it is soon, and he can get it taken care of. We are waiting to hear back from the Dr. sometime today hopefully. I feel so bad for him, and I hate to see him sick. So hopefully something will be done soon.

I am a little discouraged right now, and I hate feeling that way. I was reading in Psalms yesterday, and a verse caught my attention: Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me. (Psalm 27:7). I know that when I talk to the Lord that He hears me, and I know that He will answer me, unfortunately sometimes I have a hard time realizing that the Lord's timing is not my timing. Some things are going on right now in life that I just don't understand, and I have been lifting my prayers and petitions up to the Lord, and I know that He will answer me, I just have to wait on His time. I need to realize that my time is not the Lords time.

Well I guess that is it for me right now. I should be posting more regularly now that we are home and some what back into the routine of life. So that's all right now. :)

Rambling.... I am good at doing that

So, I was sitting here at the computer and I thought that I would just post some of the thoughts that were going through my head right now. Do you ever have those times when you have so much going on, that you don't have time to stop and ponder one thing? I feel like that is me right now.

First thing that is going through my mind is that I am having a yard sale on Saturday and I really don't know how ready for it I am. I am not the only one working on it, so that helps, but still. I want to make sure that I have everything ready. It is mainly clothes that I am selling, but there are other things here and there that I want to sale, so I want to make sure that I don't forget anything. If I do, then I think I am just going to throw whatever is left away, that or take it to Goodwill.

Next thing....We are having a graduation ceremony for Chris and a few other people at our Church next Sunday, and I really want it to be special for him. He deserves so much. He worked so hard for his degree, and I want this time to be so special for him. Nobody knows how hard he has really worked, but me and I know that through his years of being in school, and out of school he has had his trails, but has overcome them all!! He does not allow the devil to get the best of him, and even at his lowest times, he still carries on, it amazes me. So hopefully that will all go well for them on Sunday. We won't be having an evening service that night, which will kind of be nice too, because then I can come home and begin packing, or at least the process of packing anyway.

Which leads me to my next thought. VACATION is not that far away!!!! WOO HOO!!!! No, I am not excited about that at all. ;) We leave a week from Wednesday, and I am ready for it. I told Chris that I hoped this week goes fast, the last thing that I want is for it to drag on and on. I am sure that it will go fast, but you know how it is when you are looking forward to something so much, then the closer it gets the slower time seems to go. It should be a good time, and I know that we are all looking forward to just having a break. It's nice to get away, but then it will be nice to get back home too. There is a lot here that we want to have a break from though, so the longer the better is what I think sometimes. :)

Next thought...remembering old friends. There are few people that I keep in touch with from High School...and trust me, I am OK with that. I know that the Lord wouldn't want me to associate with those people anymore anyway. Well the other day I got this e-mail from an old friend of mine just simply saying hi. I was so taken aback by this e-mail, and at first I didn't believe it. Although now I can say that it is nice talking to him. It's nice to see where people are in their life since High School, and you only hope that they are living a life as good as you are. Or that they are as happy as you are. It's nice to catch up with people and then tell them how great your life is. There is nothing I like more than to tell people how happy I am in my marriage, life, etc. I am happy, sure there are times that I am not that happy, but those times are few and far between. I love being a wife, mother, and a Child of THE KING!!!! There is nothing better in life than that. I hope that people can tell how happy I really am when I write them back.

Well I guess that's all for me tonight. I will stop my ramblings now, and I think that I might head off to bed. Remember to thank all the people who are in the service that you know for your freedom!! Let's all remember the Vetrans who deserve our thanks tomorrow on Memorial Day. Good night everyone!!

To ALL the Armed Forces.......... THANK YOU

You know as this war is going on, I don't think that we stop long enough to really think about the people over seas that are fighting for our freedom. I have a nephew (in-law) that is over in Iraq right now. The other day his unit was hit by a roadside bomb. It destroyed the unit in front of his, but his unit got hit with shrapnel. By the Grace of God they weren't seriously injured. He is alright, and we Praise God for that. I received an e-mail yesterday that had a poem in it that was written by a marine. It really touched my heart. They are fighting for our freedom, and I realized that I need to be more thankful for all that they are doing over there. Here is the poem:

THE MARINE

We all came together
Both young and old
To fight for our freedom
To stand and be bold.

In the midst of all evil
We stand our ground
And we protect our country
From all terror around.

Peace and not war
Is what some people say
But I'll give my life,
So you can live the American way.

I give you the right
To talk of your peace,
To stand in your groups
And protest in the streets.

But still I fight on
I don't complain, I don't whine
I'm just one of the people
Who is doing your time.

I'm harder than nails
Stronger than any machine
I'm the immortal soldier
I'm a U.S. MARINE!!

So stand in my shoes
And leave from your home
Fight for the people who hate you
With the protests they've shown.

Fight for the stranger
Fight for the young
So they all may have
The greatest freedome you've won.

Fight for the sick,
Fight for the poor,
Fight for the cripple
Who lives next door.

But when your time comes
Do what I've done
For if you stand for freedom
You'll stand when the fight's done.

By: Corporal Aaron M. Gilbert, US Marine Corps
USS SAIPAN, PERSIAN GULF

So if you know of somebody who is fighting for our freedom right now, make sure you take the time to say THANK YOU too them. They are fighting a battle for us so that we can have our freedom, and I am so grateful for that. Pray for their safety while they are over there too, and that they will be able to come home to their families soon.

Reflecting on Life....and my babies

Well here you see my little guy. This is my youngest son, and he is 6 years old. As I was teaching him today I realized that he is so close to reading, and that brings me so much joy. He should be reading very, very soon. I think that is the biggest joy that I have as being a teacher, is being able to teach the kids how to read. I really feel as though I have done my job, when they can read. (Isn't he cute??) I thought that I would have such a hard time teaching him, because he never sits still, but he has been fairly easy to teach, and he is so eager to learn. Praise the Lord for that!! I didn't want him to be hard to teach, and the Lord answered my prayers on that one. Next year he will be in first grade!! Where does time go? (I hate that his birthday falls so late.) They grow up so fast don't they??

Here is my oldest son. (yes he looks just like his Daddy) He is in second grade, and I hate the thought that he is getting older. I wanted him to stay little, (isn't he cute too??) but I know that is not how it is. He will be 8 next month, and that is just plain crazy to me!! 8 years old, where does the time go?? I mean really. I can remember people telling me to cherish it while they are babies, cause they grow up so fast. In return I would tell them, they don't grow up that fast, do they?? Well in answer to that, YES THEY DO!! Here is my first child, and he is just getting older and older, and it makes me sad to think that he is growing up so fast. I guess that is all part of the process of life though. It's just something that they have to do, and something that I have to let them do, there is no stopping it that's for sure. I can and do praise the Lord that they have both accepted Christ as their Saviour and they are both on their way to Heaven. That is such a relief to know that both your children are saved and should something happen to them, it's OK, when they die they will be with the Heavenly Father!! Praise God for that. God is so good to us, and He has been so good to us over the years. I hate that they are getting older, but I know that there isn't anything that I can do about it, so I have to accept it and cherish every moment that I have with them. They are my babies, and they are a blessing from the Lord to Chris and I. (Plus I think that they are pretty cute too.)

Vacation CAN'T come soon enough....

OK.....So I am soooooo beyond ready for a vacation, and we are going on one, it's just not coming fast enough for my liking. We are leaving in June to go to El Paso, TX. which is where we are originally from. Our Church there is having their 50th anniversary. My Preacher has been there for 50 years, and they are celebrating it in June. I am so excited about going, and I know that it is just going to be a great time!!!! My husband is going to be able to preach there, and he is so excited about that. (this picture was taken last year in the car on the way to El Paso...isn't he cute)He is living one of his dreams by being able to Preach in the place where he surrendered his life to the Lord. God has provided this for him, and I am so happy for him. We need a break.... Life right now is kind of crazy. It's not bad, it's just draining at times. Right when you think that things are looking up, things change. And it's OK they are just things that you have to live with and learn why it is that the Lord is having you go through them.

Next weekend should be fun. We are taking our Youth group to a place called Fun City in Iowa. It has go carts, black light bowling, and lazer tag. We are hoping for a big group, but whoever shows up, we will have a good time with. Normally we have a big group of girls that go, and only a few boys. Which I tend to think that is how it is in a lot of Youth Groups. We have a good group of kids though, we really do. (here is a picture of me with some of the girls that went on our last activity.) Don't mind the rough looks on some of them, they had just gotten done playing an hour (if not more) of lazer tag. We have a good time with them though, and it helps that my husband and I are still young (although sometimes we feel old....LOL) at heart. Chris has a good time with them, and he is able to make them laugh and have fun. He makes serving the Lord fun and enjoyable to them, and that to me is important. So I guess that is all for me right now. I am off for tonight. Hope that everyone is doing well. Pray that the month will go faster, and June will be here soon. :)

Life & being mad at it

*SIGH* I seriously don't understand why it is that life has to be so complicated. It is really beyond me. Why can't we go through life and just live happily ever after?? Wouldn't that be nice. I think it would be anyway. Today has been a real downer for me and for my husband. We are truly feeling very discouraged from every angle possible. From Church, to life, to family, etc. You name it we are feeling it. The great thing though, is that we are not discouraged with each other!! That's always great.

You know you think that you can always depend on family to be there for you, and that they shouldn't let you down. They should accept you for who you are, and as you are. So why is it then that family is always the ones that hurt you the most??!!?? We are facing battles right now with our family members that we should NOT be facing. Uggghh!!!! It really makes me mad. Right when you think that you have something to look forward to, something happens, and reality strikes, and you realize that you don't have anything to look forward to at all. Life can be so discouraging sometimes. It's beyond me why the Lord allows you to go through trials, and valleys but I do realize that you have to go through them sometimes, and learn why it is that you went through that. All the while trusting the Lord to see you through it. You know my favorite poem (if you will) is Footprints in the sand. And as the man is going through rough times, he asks the Lord why was it that in the hardest times in my life, I see only one set of footprints. The Lord replys: My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. In the times of your trials and sufferings, when you saw only one set of footprints, IT WAS THEN THAT I CARRIED YOU!! I absolutely love that. And how true it is. The Lord carries us through so much, and I think that we lose sight of it all.

So I guess that even though I am going through a valley, that I need to trust in the Lord to carry me through, and I need to realize that in this time it is now that He is carrying me. He will see me through into the other side. I will come out of this valley, it is just a matter of time. And until then I remain safely In His Grip!!

Computers.... love to HATE them....

Or should I say you love to hate the server!! Uggghhhh I am so annoyed right now with our provider. We have cable modem, and they are doing "repairs" on them right now. My e-mail is down, and that is not a good thing. There are few things in life that bring me sanity during the day, and my e-mail is one of them. (Not to mention that we have been bickering back and forth with the stupid people today about our account.) If it's not one thing it's another. I don't know what the deal is with it, I really don't. All I can say is that I hope by tomorrow it is all fixed. So there is my extra ramblings for today...Now let's hope tomorrow is better.

My joy in life

You know I have been having a really rough time the past week or so, and I am having a hard time finding joy in things. But if you look to the left, you will see what is my true pride and joy in my life!! My family is by far the biggest thing that makes me happy. (Well the Lord makes me the happiest, but my family is next in line) My husband is so great and wonderful and I love him with all my heart and soul. The Lord truly blessed me with a wonderful man of God!! The Lord has also blessed me with two precious little boys. My kids are my pride and joy. I absolutely love being a wife and a mom. I was telling my husband yesterday that hearing your children call you Mommy or Daddy, is the best sound in the world to me. I absolutely love being called Mommy. That is such a sweet sound to my ears. I never wanted anything more in life then what I have now. A wonderful realtionship with the Lord, an excellent marriage, and being a Mommy. There is no greater joy than that in life.

I think that we can sit there and sulk, (and sometimes we may have too), but either we move on, OR we fail in everything. Even though the past week has really been draining on me, I realize that either I work on what is bothering me, have a breakdown, and really tell God what is bothering me, OR I can sit there and continue to dwell in it. Either way, I think that I am going to try to move on. I have to focus on the good, and with a family like mine, how could I go wrong?? I HAVE to focus on what the Lord has done, and is going to do in my life, instead of focusing on what is going wrong. I found a saying that I heard a Pastor say once, and it really struck home to me. It says this :What has your heart, has your life. If the Lord doesn't have your heart, then He doesn't have your life. You know sometimes we let other things have our hearts, instead of allowing the Lord to have it, and I think that is my problem right now. I don't always allow the Lord to have my whole heart, and I have to start allwoing Him to have my everything. So that's my two cents for today.

Today is BLAH day

Today is a day of just plain BLAH. Nothing special to look forward too or at least it doesn’t feel that way, just the same old same old. You know your normal every day run of the mill things to do. For me that’s (in no specific order) making breakfast, cleaning up, checking e-mails, stopping the boys from fighting, laundry, baths for the boys, lunch, more cleaning, school work, shower for me, getting ready for Church tonight, figuring out what’s for supper, and the list goes on and on. And in the midst of all this trying to figure out why your heart is so heavy.

Being a woman gives you such liberty to feel so many different emotions (even when you can’t explain why), and wondering at the same time, why you are having those emotions. (Or at least I think it does) The other day I was talking to my husband and I was up one minute and down the next. He said I don’t understand you… and to that, I responded as any other woman would… I don’t get it either, but I am a woman and I am allowed to act this way. (probably not true, but it sounds good anyway..LOL) :) Well today is one of those days too. I have such a heavy heart, and I don’t know why. I thought well maybe it is the weather…and I don’t think that’s it. Then I thought maybe I just feel overwhelmed, and I do. I just feel like bllllahhhhh. I truly hate feeling this way, because when you do, you tend to take it out on the ones that you love. But how do you find the time to talk to someone and tell them how you are really feeling. You know that as a wife and a mother, you are always there to listen when someone has a problem. Even as a Youth/Assistant Pastors wife, you have to listen. None of these things bother me; it is what I live for. I want to help people and I want to listen to everything that they have to say, especially when it is my family, but then how do, you explain to everyone else how you are feeling and have it make sense?? Maybe one of these days I will figure it out. Until then….I am going to go on and have a BLAH kind of day. :{

It's Been A Good Night

Doing the will of God sometimes has such great rewards. Tonight was a good night, and I am on cloud nine right now. My husband and I and our two boys went to a Preachers meeting with Dr. Tony Hudson. What an awesome man of God!! (Plus he is from the South, and how can you go wrong there??) You know I think often times we loose sight of the fact that as Christians (who have the Lord in their hearts); we forget that we need to be separated from the world. We need to have higher standards, and I have to say that tonight I was really challenged to begin to start living a better life. It was a great night, and I have to say that I thoroughly enjoyed myself!

After the service, we went to go and get some dessert. We went to all these places, and they were all closed (by minutes). So we ended up going to Baker’s Square (that’s like a Village Inn for y’all from the South.) I got pie and it was so yummy. Well we were the only ones in there, and the manager came and asked how everything was. My oldest Dylan said that the pie was great (not as good as Mommy’s though…He loves me). He went on and on about how great the pie was. Well the manager walked away, and then he came back with a pie box in his hands. He told Dylan we are going to play a game; think of a number between 3&5….Dylan took a few moments and said 4! The manager said, you win, and he gave us a FRESH strawberry pie, the whole thing!!!!!! Praise the Lord!! People would say well that was just happen chance, no...That was God giving us a blessing!! It was a great night, and now I am going to go to bed. Good night everyone!!

So Here I am

Well I kept telling myself that I wanted to create a blog...So here I am. I do not know how often I will update this thing, but I will do my best. I think that this will be a good place for me to rant and vent when I have too. I am sure that there will not be too many people who will read this, but it is fun for me anyway. :)

A little bit about me. I am a helpmeet to my wonderful husband! We have been married for 8 years now and it just keeps getting better and better. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with him, and living each day to serve him. He is my love and my life. I am also a Mother to two wonderful little boys!! They are my pride and joy. I home school both of them, and as hectic as that can be sometimes, I know that the blessing is worth it in the end. My youngest is starting to learn to read, and my oldest is learning so much that I can hardly keep up...and I am the teacher. :) We enjoy it though, and we have a good time too. I am a Sunday School teacher, a Youth Pastor's wife, and I LOVE every minute of it. It is amazing to see teens learn the Word Of God, and wanting to learn it. What joy I have being a teacher to the teen girls, and I love every minute of it.

My husband is studying to become a Pastor. He is almost done with his school, and I could not be happier about that. He has worked so hard for this degree, and he has earned it. It has been a rough road, but one that I am sure we would not trade anything for. As with everything in life, it has been a learning experience, and I know that, I would not trade it for anything. It was a long process, but to God be the Glory in the end!!

Well I guess that is all for me right now. I will update as much as I possibly can. I am sure that I will be on here more than I should be. I have time while the kids are working on different things in the school. Bye for now. :)